如果..

如果当初放弃梦想，就这样嫁了。 现在会是过着怎么样的日子？ 因该没比现在好多少吧.. 哈哈哈..
还是打起精神来，继续打这场战吧！ 还要打多久？ 快撑不住了。 好累啊！ 大家也要加油哦！ =D
Back to books again.. haiz..

Distraction

Am suppose to be writing my project report now but the commotion in my living room is too distracting.. Partly also i'm not in the mood to do any writing now.. I should have gone out to take a break this evening.. But the report is due next wed.. Frustrated.. Very soon the stress level will be rising because quizzes are coming.. And soon after will be exam again..

There will be 3 weddings this year end.. Somehow everyone are getting married.. Don't know why I felt a little sad for myself when i heard that my kindergarten classmate is getting married this year end.. Thou marriage is not in my short term plan now.. I mean most of my friends of my age are working and planning their marriage.. Look at me.. Am still a student.. Is this sad or lucky? Well, i don't know.. Neither do i want to know.. I'm not even sure what's lie ahead for me..

Time to get back to my report..

You

Why does the news makes me so worried?! Why am i even worrying abt you?! Really hope you'll hv a safe trip to & fro.. I shldn't be thinking abt you anymore.. I hope you'll nv know i'm worrying & thinking abt you..

Came across this on my way to school.. It best describe my life..

" It does not matter how slowly you go, so long you do not stop. "

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Haiz.. Why do ppl always come to me when they need help.. But whenever i needed a listening ears i hv no one suitable to turn to?! I don't mind to be a listening ears for my friends.. But there are times where some issue i rather not listen to.. Or rather some issue regarding some ppl.. Not when you are going to ask me qns abt my past.. There are some qns i rather not ans..
你然我好烦恼。。 你的问题我不想回答。。 那都是我不想在回想起的过去回忆。。 对不起！

"忘不掉的过去，不如不要忘，把它埋在心底里，做为人生故事的一部分。沉寂的过去就会变成了人生的养料。"

过去的回忆

Ah~~ This is so irritating..
Since we choose to end it back then.. Pls let it all end & keep it as memories.. Don't keep bringing it up again & again.. Let's just move on with our life.. Don't you walk in & out of my life as & when you like.. It's irritating & disruption to my life.. After all these years i'm doing very well even without you.. I may have changed but it's for my own good.. 不要等到你失去了才来说我有多好.. It doesn't work on me.. Let us just remain as friends.. 回忆始终是回忆.. 人要向前看.. 不要活在过去的回忆里..

摸不透的心

想为自己挣取 有你在我身边
却害怕因告白 你想回避
也就从此 离开了我的世界
却不想这样 继续爱恋着

一次又一次的邀约 你都没拒绝
偶尔期望你的回拒 我可就此放手
真是猜不透 你心里想什么
我对你的好感 你可否查觉到
我该如何赢得你的心 你的关怀

因俩人的差距 害怕带给你伤害
我该如何是好 对你的爱恋
讨厌我的顾虑 我的担忧
缺乏勇气 自我挣取
I wanna be your love
Be your love

Behind the mask

我好痛苦!
I tried so hard to sort out my feelings.. but I went into denial instead.. On & off those feelings will resurface again.. no matter how deep in I buried them.. I really thought i’ve sort them out.. keeping myself busy with all sorts of things.. trying to move on.. not till recently that it resurface when I’m alone & come across some sad songs.. tears threaten to flow.. I’ve come to faced it & move on with all the necessary things sort out but I just can’t shake the feelings off.. If I carry on like this.. I thought I might go crazy.. or maybe fall into depression.. Slowly I’m losing control of my own emotion.. Am I really losing it??

你不是我.. 你怎么能体会..
It’s easy for others to comfort me with all those words that i’ve hear umpteen times.. Thanks! But that’s all just words.. I’m the one who have to go through it.. It’s easy said then done.. All those feelings, stress and obstacles awaiting.. I don’t see any lights nor hopes.. This is really not what I’ve wanted.. I want to be free of all these.. The urge to run away.. The need to live my life the way I prefer..

也只不过是可望而以..
I thought I’ll be fine facing all these alone.. but no matter how strong a front I put up.. Sometimes, I do wish to have a shoulder to lean on.. someone I can hold on to & cry my heart out when I need to.. It’s ok if he’s helpless in some situation.. I just need his presence.. But where are you now?

我是我的绊脚石..
I need to break free.. move on without looking back.. Can I really do so? I know I carried too much stress, burden on my shoulder.. I want to relax but I don’t know how.. No one is holding me back.. except myself.. I hate myself!

好想重新再来.. 能不能给我个时光机?
你想要的.. 我却不能够给你我全部..
我能给的.. 却又不是你想要拥有的..
不想认输.. 不想再约束.. 不要再痛苦..